Who I Want To Be

I have been signed off sick by my Doctor for the last couple of months - stress and depression. I'm still struggling with identity issues, the ongoing divorce & ensuing custody battle, and losing my house. Each one of those would be a lot and as you can imagine, all of them at once is huge.

So much of it is out of my control which in and of itself is stressful. I've been working with a psychological wellbeing coach on recognising and accepting this, and focusing on what I can do something about. It's slow progress, but I'm steadily identifying areas of my life that I do have control over, working on how I want to improve them and what the steps are. Some of it so ridiculously simple and I'm kicking myself for not recognising/realising it myself and ashamed for needing helping but, as my therapist reminds me, my chemical levels in my brain are a little screwy and my brain needs coaching. She keeps reminding it's similar to breaking a leg and needing physiotherapy to restrengthen the muscles etc again.

What does the new me look like?
I will be back in work. I will have my own place to live. I will have shared custody of my son.

Other than that, who knows what the future holds for me